I have had people call me super mom or ask me how I do all the things that I do. Well I am far from being a super mom, I am just trying to get through the days and it just happens that crafts and this blog is what keeps me going. I haven’t gone a day for at least two months without some kind of disaster happening with my kids.
To be completely honest, I am actually struggling a lot right now. For the past year I have been suffering from depression. Not too serious that I have gotten medical attention, but enough that I haven’t been happy for quite some time. I tend to be a negative person, so I try hard not to show that side of me on this blog because I don’t want people to run away….
So back to yesterday, I had a huge day of fails. Like I said, I am far from being a super mom. This is the current state of my living room. It usually looks like this 95% of the time. The other 5% is when someone is coming over and I quickly clean and hide things in a closet.
The newsletter was a mess in itself, the computer froze before I could save and then I ran out of ink. It wouldn’t have been a huge deal if I lived in a city and I could just run to the store to buy more but no, I live 2 hours away from Walmart so I can’t just go and get things like that.
Sadly that isn’t all that happened yesterday, it just happens to be the things that I took pictures of. When my kids act out like this, I feel like a failure as a parent. The sad thing is that yesterday I seriously tried to sit down and do things with them. I had them help me make the cookies. I had them help me wrap presents. I had them help me with the Christmas newsletters. And still it isn’t good enough….
It was a pretty crappy day for me, but honestly it was a fairly normal day for me. When my husband gets home from work I usually just end up hiding in my room so I can get a moment to myself.
I’m grateful that tomorrow is a new day. Let’s hope that it is a better day.